SHROUD OF FALSE

We are just a moment in time
A blink of an eye
A dream for the blind
Visions from a dying brain
I hope you don`t understand

FRAGILE DREAMS

Tonight your soul sleeps,
but one day you will feel real pain
Maybe then you will see me as I am
A fragile wrec on storm of emotion
Countless times I trusted you,
I let you back in,
Knowing... Yearning... you know
I should have run... but I stayed
Maybe I always knew,
My fragile dreams would be broken for you.
Today I introduced myself
To my own feelings,
In silent agony, after all these years,
They spoke to me... after all these years
Maybe I always knew,
My fragile dreams would be broken for you.

EMPTY

Empty vessel under the sun
wipe the dust from my face another morning black sunday
coming down again I`m coming down again
Empty vessel, empty veins, empty bottle, wish for rain
that pain again wash the blood off my face,
the pulse from my brain
pain again... and I feel that pain again
I`m looking over my shoulder cos millions will whisper
I`m killing myself again
Maybe I`m dying faster but nothing ever lasts
I remember a night from my past when I was stabbed in the back
And it`s all coming back and I feel that pain again
I abhor you, I condemn you
cos this pain will never end
You got away without a scratch
and now you`re walking on a lucky path
I have to laugh but you`d better watch your back
There`s pathetic opposition, they`re the cause of my condition
I`ll be coming back for them
I`ve a solution for this sad situation
Nothing left but to kill myself again
Because I`m so empty

LOST CONTROL

Life has betrayed me once again,
I accept that some things will never change.
I`ve left your tiny minds magnify my agony
and it`s left me with a chemical dependency for sanity.
Yes, I am faling...
how much longer till I hit the ground?
I can`t tell you why I`m breaking down.
Do you wonder why I prefer to be alone?
Have I really lost control?
I`m coming to an end,
I`ve realised what I could have been.
I can`t sleep so I take a breath
and hide behind my bravest mask,
I admit I`ve lost control.
Lost control.

RE-CONNECT

The fragments of connection died
Some things just won`t fade with time
Hide behind a transparent eye
You can`t see me but I can you...
Betray without a moment`s thought
Regret nothing but getting caught
Your time comes and here I stand
Why should I hold out my hand to you...
I could never turn to you
I was silenced by that look in your eye
I feel I`m slipping back again
Black cold night I toss and turn
I`m sinking feel so... drained
Shroud me, llind me, sick, weak, empty,
drag me... into pain
I tried so hard, don`t drown me, bound to me
self indulgently... crazed
Black as coal, my sunken soul,
will it ever be... saved?
Come on and twist that knife again
Well I`d like to see you fucking try
Never going back again
An answer won`t come from me
Confront your own worst enemy
What does your mirror see
Is it time to face up to me?

INNER SILENCE

When the silence beckons,
And the day draws to a close,
When the light of your life sighs,
And love dies in your eyes,
Only then will I realise,
What you mean to me.

ALTERNATIVE 4

It`s killing you, you`re killing me,
I`m clinging on to my sanity,
All I need is a short term remedy,
Come and hide me from this terrible reality...
Dreaded memories flood back to me,
But there`s still a wilful mind
behind this cold, psychotic eyes,
Now I tread this path so differently,
I`ve opened my mind and darkened my entire life.
I`ll dance with the angels to celebrate the holocaust,
And far beyond my far gone pride,
Is knowing that we`ll soon be gone,
Knowing that I`ll soon be gone...

REGRET

As I drift away... far away from you,
I feel all alone in a crowded room,
Thinking to myself
"There`s no escape from this fear regret loneliness..."
Visions of love and hate
A collage behind my eyes
Remnants of dying laughter
Echoes of silent cries
I wish I didn`t know now what I never knew
Flashback
Memories punish me once again
Sometimes I remember all the pain that I have seen
Sometimes I wonder what might have been
Visions of love and hate
A collage behind my eyes
Remnants of dying laughter
Echoes of silent cries
And sometimes I despair at who I`ve become
I have to come to terms with what I`ve done
The bittersweet taste of fate
We can`t outrun the past
Destined to find an answer
A strenght I never lost
I know there is a way,
My future is not set,
For the tide has turned,
But still I never learned to live without regret.

FEEL

I`ve a feeling I may not be coming down from this,
I was searching through the heavans and somehow I slipped,
I feel, I`m seeing so clear
Trying to forget tomorrow and all that`s happened,
This is not the way, the way I was meant to be.
I feel, I`m seeing so clear,
I thought I was never going to die.
I feel, I`m seeing so clear,
We need more time.
Slipping away, I think I`m gonna crack,
Misplaced trust, loyalty stabbed in the gut.
I feel, I`m seeing so clear,
I thought I was never coming back.
I`ve been down for a while,
And now I`m coming back...

DESTINY

I tried to murder the lonely,
Contemplate our mortality.
Into infinity,
Frozen memory
Wipe the tears from yesterday,
A time for change, take the pain away.
Angel, my destiny,
Can you feel me?